Spring Princess

I have started a new and steady diet (yay) using Livestrong.com and tracking my calories vigorously. It's awesome and I have a ton of hope. Spring is starting early (of course) and I am riding on its energy. Weeee!

Let's list the things I want

I have been hidden under a man's thick overcoat for far too long. Can I count the days I'd rather be single? Yes. I suppose I shall start today.

I want to move out of this shitty apartment with cleaner roommates. Counting down the seconds until August. CANNOT wait to live with Hunter and have a pottery garden outside and will cook with our own herbs and exchange bites of vegetable dishes. Yes.

I want a clean and clear space to maintain. I want it to be neutral and blank and bright. The bigger the window, the more I'll drool over it.

I want to figure out my body and feel in charge of it. I want to know it. I want to understand why I can't lose weight. I want to be 120 and not a pound over.

I want to look and feel like this:

Happy Wednesday

This is day 27 of my 28 Day Detox. I'd say I've been about 70% successful. I learned a ton about will power, went through a rough patch, but picked myself up and still kept off some weight. I will not leave the United States in May weighing anything more than 129. It's 8 pounds away right now, but I will get there!

I am discovering that dieting correctly relates directly to a healthy psychological, environmental, and overall lifestyle change. I will spend the end of Winter and my Spring enjoying the sun and using my energy to get to the change I want. I want a clean environment. I want my creativity to flourish and I want to feel fucking wholesome and independent. I want to live off Sunday Farmer's Markets, fruits and veggies. I want to find the best balance for my body and see myself as a successful teacher.

With all this being said, I know I can do it. I have been doing it. However, I seem to do so much better when Elliott isn't around.. and he disturbs my consistency when he brings his sunshine and yellow flowers. What to do? Maybe shorter visits? Preventing it by not allowing enough time where I turn to mush. Doesn't hurt keeping him around if we can't see each other for a while anyways, right?

..right?

Sunday Market

What a lovely weekend this has been. Lazy Sunday at the Farmer's Market. Folk music, fresh food, local venues, and great folks in the sun. What a blessed place Sweetwaters Organic Farm is!

I must finish my monochromatic painting as well as exercise and make Elliott a card for tomorrow. Funny how things turn out when you just let go. Close your eyes and breathe. Smell your environment and its effects. Find a way to be around what makes you happy and if you can't than change what makes you happy.

Cheers to being young and finding balance.
...muchmuchMUCH more important (and satisfying) than finding love